Thoughts on a Sunday ♡♡

  • I’ve been thinking a lot about life, I’ve been spending a lot of my time self-reflecting. I’ve been thinking about choices I made in the past, dreams I had in the past, thinking about who I want to be, and what I want to be known as. And one thing I realized is over the course of 34 years I’ve changed my mind, I changed my path, I changed my circle of friends, I have changed my biggest supporters, I have burned plenty of bridges, but I’ve also tried to repair them as well. I’ve been a wife, I’ve been an ex-wife, I’ve been a girlfriend, a friend, a mom, I’ve been fired, I’ve gotten more tickets than I probably should have, I’ve been promoted, I’ve been demoted, I’ve been sick, I’ve had plenty of hospital stays, I have moved too many times, I’ve had hundreds of seizures, I’ve taken thousands of pills on my life to control my seizures, I tried tons of diets, I ate way too much sugar,  I sing way too loudly in the car,  I never been out of the country except to Canada and Mexico and even in Mexico was like barely over the Border. I hate to be late,  and I really can’t stand traffic,  I spend most of my time over thinking about everything . I’ve also done my best to help other people. These are just some of the things I’ve done. In life I’ve learned that, life is not perfect. Life is not easy. Everyone has bad days, everyone makes mistakes, everyone is in situation throughout life that they want to just crawl in a hole and die. We all have great days we all have not-so-good days. I think in life too many people focus on the mistakes they’ve made,  they focud on their shortcomings, they focus too much on the hard times, but man those hard times make or break us. There is no real way to determine who you’re going to be in life or the path you’re going to take because no matter how planned out your life is and how many goals you have there’s always going to be things thrown at you. I think the harder of a life someone leads the stronger person they are because they learned to overcome. And let me tell you I’ve learned to overcome. I will never claim to be perfect, I will never claim to know everything, but what I will do, spend my life trying to be the best version of myself and right now I don’t know what that is or what that looks like. All I can do everyday is wake up make smart choices, be a good mom, be a good friend, live my life with integrity and realize that not every day is going to be perfect, not everybody is going to like me and not everybody’s going to approve of who I am or what I stand for. What matters most is that I like me, that I approve of me, and then I am happy. And in turn my girls will be too. Life is too short to worry about all the little things that could or will or might happen. You must take life as it comes and while you’re taking your life as it comes, doing your best to deal with all the life throws out yet. Realize the others are doing the same so the next time you see somebody or you know somebody that’s living their life less than perfect or is living their life differently than you think they should, or is making more mistakes then you can count. Try to offer less judgement. None of us have any reason to judge each other, we really are all the same when you get down to it and I know all of us can agree, on those hard days, and those dark times, and those unsure not so proud moments that we all face- the last thing we need is somebody looking at us laughing and judging us.  when somebody is going through something look at them with empathy, try to understand where people are at in life and why they might be there, because I can promise you at one point in your life you will be there too, and the last thing you will want as somebody judging you. A little kindness goes a long ways.
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